Mother's Day Reflections!

Just when I think I can not bare up one more trial...my son always seems to be by my side...I have been struggling with getting my hypothyroidism under control and it hasn't been easy...so the moments I find myself truly down...I am always reminded of the sincere love each of my children have for me...today I fell off a ladder, while picking peaches...as I heard Art & Rohnin approaching... I also heard this fear in Rohnin's voice as he was calling out "mama" I was obviously lying on the ground hurt...but I could tell he was scared as to if I was alright, his voice broke like he was about to cry, he was so worried. As I began to pick myself up and my pride... I began to feel the pain of my own insecurities set in of embarrassment and self doubt as to why and what had caused the fall...on the commute ride home it was just Addy and I and I began to cry...Addy noticed and the compassion, love, and genuine concern I felt from her, and All my children today, as well as other days, when I am down or hurt or hurting inside... leaves me in awe...Rohnin always seems to be in tuned with this for as I lay in bed pondering after this... he chose to lay next to me trying to comfort me, then later Art tells me that Addy was such a big help and that her prayer was so genuinely sincere... Even Abram came in and said I'm sorry you fell mama...I think as parents we often question if what we are teaching our children is influencing them for the good or the bad...I have been trying to go to the temple once a week now for the last month and the cares of this world truly become obsolete as i see what it is that is truly important in our Heavenly fathers eyes, and that is My Family not that it ever wasn't but the world tries to obscure that in so many different complex ways)...My children have such incredible LOVE for me, Me...with my many concerns and doubts...Me with my constant lectures, yelling, and tears...Me who is so far from perfect...they do not see behind my curtain of pain and self doubt... they see the woman right in front of them...that gives them love and food, protection and caring arms that wrap them up, when they are hurt, or feeling down...They remind me constantly that I am not so bad...It truly is simply amazing to me how much my children LOVE me for just being me...I had a dear friend in my last ward remind me that I am right where I need to be, that there is NO grater calling than in my home serving my children...he at the time had just began the adoption process with his wife my dearest friend...who could not have children of her own...as a mother and wife I get so caught up in the day to day things that I forget to take a step back and cherish these little moments with my incredible children...I am Blessed because my children see greatness & potential in me, even when I do not...I am blessed because of their fearless love they have for me...the beautiful compliments that come from each one of my children often goes unnoticed...but as I sit hear writing with tears rolling... I am astonished... they know my needs better than I know them...lol...I know my children's weaknesses and strengths, as they know mine...They are the reason I get up, the reason I push myself to do better, to be more Christ like! Each one of my children have gotten to a point at about age 4 when they will say "mama...mama" like they are about to say something important, and then say "Mama I Love You" That Is the important thing they needed to tell me...it is that beautiful line that reminds me that my Heavenly Father blessed me way beyond my own comprehension when I was gifted with each one of my children...I am still learning and will always be learning how to rise above and be the best mother and wife I can be...but thankfully I can call upon my saviors grace when I fall short...when I error and go to apologize my children have already forgiven me and tell me they love me...this...this is why we must become like little children...because they ARE the Perfect example of LOVE, FORGIVENESS, and JOY, at its finest...Just as our Savior is! I am truly grateful for this insight...this knowledge...I am blessed because I was gifted 3...THREE beautiful...smart...amazing..talented...energetic...perfect children! I LOVE being a mother...I LOVE it!!